Friday, October 29, 2010

Doldrums

Not sure what happened this morning, but I'm having trouble shaking this feeling of mediocrity and disappointment. Perhaps if I had a decent Halloween costume, or any Halloween costume, I might feel differently, but like the costume itself, it would just disguise what's actually underneath. And right now I'm not really feeling all that great about what's underneath. I don't even feel like a person at the moment. I'm moving and I'm breathing and unfortunately I'm thinking, but it's more surviving than anything else. There's nothing behind my movements...just going along to go along without any sense of direction. Actually that's not true, I do sense a direction, but it's backwards and that's not the direction I want to be heading. Progress comes and goes I suppose. You take some steps forward. You take some steps back. In the end you hope to be farther along then when you started, but I feel like I've taken many steps in life only to end up at essentially the same place I began.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

In My Weakness, I Shall Find My Strength.

No one was put on this Earth to be a printer, except for Gutenberg (not Steve...it's spelled differently) and Bi Sheng and Franklin and millions of others, but besides those few...nobody. Okay well at least not me in my current capacity. Work is all fine and good and I do the best I can, but it's still work. It's nothing more than a weakness of mine. I appreciate the job and all that comes with it and I'm not looking to move on, I just need to expand and do other things. You know...other things that enhance this life experience. I don't want to die with more regrets on the plate than adventures. I don't want to realize someday that I made so little of my life that I'll be forgotten faster than (insert bad joke about failed relationship here) new thoughts can be remembered. That last sentence makes no sense to me, but you get the point. There's more to this here life than what I've contributed so far. 

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Melbourne's Luna Park


I like this picture quite a bit, otherwise I probably wouldn't post it, but you probably already knew that.

Lollapalooza Entrance


Nothing to write here, just thought I'd try and add a picture to see what it looks like on this here ol' blog. I also have no idea who these people are in the photo. All I know is that they were lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time when I made the calculated decision to take a photograph.

One of These Days...

I'll have something to actually blog about, but I'm afraid this probably isn't that day. I'm at work printing 5000 brochures and it's pretty boring work. Not much to do besides listen to the press go round and round spitting out brochure after brochure, hour after mindless hour. In the meantime I sit hunched over on this rather stiff, rubber backed, black stool determined to find something to keep my interest. So far it's been a struggle.

Approximately 10 peanut M&M's just lost their livelihood due to my incessant need for ruthless candy killing. Who knows why I do it, I just do. Perhaps those little blue, red and yellow motherfuckers deserved to die a short, crunchy, saliva covered death? Perhaps they didn't? I am in no position to judge their right to exist, nor am I in position to judge my own right to exist. I'll leave that up to some sort of higher power such as MacGyver or Shelly Long.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Preparations.

It's sort of like reparations, but without all the racist overtones. Still trying to sort out where to put all our crap, especially since roommate number three will be moving in on Sunday. I think we've made some solid progress figuring out how to best utilize the space.

Regardless the space is good. Surround sound got hooked up tonight downstairs. The Apple TV and the stereo upstairs is ready to go. Only 18,000 more songs to download to it, but perhaps it will be finished in the morning, though morning has already begun. I'm not a farmer though so I'll just go to bed and wake up whenever the hell my body decides to wake up. Lately it's been pretty good at that though, so it'll most likely be earlier than I'd prefer. Still too many thoughts running rampant through the mind.

Anyway things are good. I've recovered pretty well for the most part.